I've ben reading Blogs for a half hour, interesting stuff, it helps me see what is important to the people who God has placed in my life for whatever time I'm with you all. Well here's whats important to me. I try to listen to what God has to say to me. Through circumstances, people, nature, assignments, etc. I have children to raise, a wife, friends, all of whom need to know that I love them, while they are able to hear it. I believe in giving flowers to the living. A comment, thats meant for all who I'm following, keep sharing your thoughts, your hopes, your dreams. Your right from my perspective. Home is where the heart is. Nothing has been more important for me than my children. I have wanted to be a father since I was about fifteen. My first was born at 29. However, when I was 17, I met, my first wife. She was about 23, and had 3 children. We got married in Basil Switzerland, in 1975. By 1980, it was over. But the relationship with the children rebooted in 1997 at Haywood's wedding. He found me, and asked me to come to his wedding in North Carolina. We are close again, and Donna and Wanda have allowed me back into their lives as well. All six of my children met, and when Najee was killed Haywood Donna and Wanda helped, and are helping to Nurse me back to health. I love my children, some of whom have adopted me and call me dad. I thank God for all my experiences, the good and the ones that are a lot harder to except. Because I don't have a choice. I don't go around consciously creating problems for myself, and other people like I used to. Life can be to short for that. I make mistakes, and when I catch myself doing that, I regroup, and change direction to whats more in line with Gods will. I got to take my baby girl to school

My Body really hurts, today, only thing that's changed is this medication thet got prescribed last week. It's one of those necessary ones, so hopefully, my body will get used to it and the pain lessen. Other than that, I'm having a good day. Got my class work done , just need to get this blog posted, and follow three people and I'm out. Visited Bobby yesterday, he survived emergency stomach surgery, to remove an obstruction, so once again I have reason to count my blessings. He called me last Friday afternoon, while I was on the way to Hilton Head. Told me he was at the hospital since early in the morning. About 12 Saturday Patrick called me and said Bobby had had emergency surgery. I could only be thankful that he had survived it. Bobby is a great friend, and chess player. He's a cancer surviver, Viet Nam vet, and he's experienced losing a daughter. We've got a lot in common, have walked through some similar stuff, I'm glad the brother is still on this side of the ground. I'll be stopping by the hospital on the way home. I believe it's best to give flowers while you can smell them. Enjoy your day, or night.

This is not my idea of fun, playing with a computer But I've endured much, much, worse. As I said before, most of it was self inflicted. So please don't get it twisted, I'm not complaining. Believe it or not, I enjoyed, quite a bit of it. Just didn't always enjoy the consequences. Each and every experience, has molded me into the man I am today. I think I turned out okay. I appreciate life, love God, and enjoy living. I live each day as if it could be my last, and I try to help, anyone who wants my help. I've found it to be a huge waste of my time to try to help anyone that doesn't. Enjoy your day.

1248 Tuesday morning. I have been asleep since 7 something. I feel rested, but know I need to get back in the bed, and go back to sleep. I can be pretty irritable, when I don't get enough, sleep, food, sex, attention, love, respect, fun, conversation, dang, the list goes on and on. I could go on and on about that. I can't answer any questions about anyone but myself. I don't have all the answers to all the problems in the world. I'm really, honestly only writing because this is an assignment, that is a really big part of the grade I get for this computer course. So I laid in the bed after I woke up to relieve myself, trying to figure out what I could write. I have avoided using most of this media, for a very long time and am really not thrilled to continue, but I have to get the degree I'm after. It's not for money though, I'm 58, retired, and capable of living off the retirement check and odd jobs if I must. But I'm driven by closure. Who cares about that, but me? So I can't write about that, at least, not here.Got to keep that to myself. So just so some of my class mates and professor Beard understand, that I care and have read about some of your thoughts on love and children, and Tony, I need you to know you are my inspiration. I hope everyone in the world gets to experience, love, all of our children learn to appreciate those of us who take the time to be the best parents we can be, learn how to express, the love and respect they have for us, in a way we can see it. Sometimes we don't see what we have, because it's already there. I've often looked for things , I already had. Bad habit, not appreciating, what I've got. Love, is all around us. It's right there, try, embracing it. Please, enjoy your day! the most important thing I got, I saved for last, hope you read this far, PRAY, seek GOD, and ask him to answer all your questions. Just a suggestion. Enjoy!

Back at school, I am in computer class, I need this class to be successful at a job I didn't see coming. Obviously I wasn't supposed to see it coming. I guess I was prepared for it cause they say God don't give you more than you can handle, and I have plenty of experiences to believe it's true by now. Some have been self inflicted, I don't believe this one was, but I'm still standin. Why bother sharing the particulars with the world though, cause, my other experiences are that most people couldn't care less. So I'll write this blog cause if I don't I'll definitely fail this course. But I guess I'm as guilty of being as self centered, as the people I'm criticizing. But I've learned, if you spot it, you got it, there's no other way to recognize a thing. So I'll try to share what I've got to share even though I believe people couldn't care less. and hopefully learn what I need to learn to solve MY problem. I may have been causing another problem for myself, by not providing proof that I read others blogs by commenting in writing. But I do read them, I'm not sure most people want to hear my comments, but if it's part of the grade, I'll do that too.

742 pm, 2-4-14, had a good weekend, Cracker Barrel, Saturday morning, after my wife's successful procedure, at 6 in the morning, came home took a nap. Got up did a little work in the house, went to dinner at Smokey Bones. Came home, played Uno, watched some movie, went to sleep. Got up, went to church at 8 am, left at 130 pm, got food for super bowl party, we seasoned it up, fired up the grill and I cooked it up. Friend of mine showed up with his 4 year old son and we watched the game and talked trash. No alcohol, no drugs. We had a great time , good food good conversation, and his kid is a riot. Got a good night sleep. I don't gamble, much. But if I did, I would've won some money. School today was alright, learned some stuff I needed, some of my classmates are a riot. had an uneventful day. homes peaceful, gonna eat dinner work out a little, crash. enjoy YOUR night.