Good morning, I hope its a good one for you. I'm doing better, I'm seeing better, gets better every day. Not completely back, but better. Guess I'm awake , because I got a lot of sleep. Came home after class, went to bed. I think i'm a little sad about this bad sight thing, it's not fun. Makes me want to close my eyes, so I do, every chance I get. Nice thing, is each time I do that, I open them and there is improvement. My daughter came home, I got up, we talked, and ate, she ate my chicken! I jerked the chicken for me, I cooked cajun for her. She always says the jerk is to hot! She ate my chicken. I ain't mad at her. I'll cook more jerk next time.We had a good afternoon. I'm going back to bed. It's 4 AM.

Good Morning, hope y'all had a great week.  Mine has gotten better. Last week I had trouble seeing, and didn't want to share that with anyone. So I shared it on a need to Know basis, only. I'm sharing it today only because my vision has improved at least to the point where I'm able to see to the point to see what I'm looking at. Last week I shouldn't have been driving at all. It's a blessing I made it  in. The eye doctor said I probably poisoned myself, through my eyes with insecticide I applied to my lawn. It's all good though, forced me to my knees again. Asked God to restore my sight, he is, only slowly. Helped me remember, that all things are possible, though him, and he 's the ultimate authority, not me. If he decided I wasn't gonna get my sight back, I wouldn't have. So I spent some time this morning, thanking him, for the improvement, and hope he continues, cause it's not completely back yet. And I still feel poisoned, my balance is a little off. My morning started at 320, and I went back to bed at 428,till about, 630. Got up, found gas for 330, and I'm here at school, Grateful. Be 59 in 21 days, God willin.

Some of us have experienced love hate and everything in between, I know I have. I have experienced great joy, and great pain. Because of that, I am capable of empathizing with others that have, are experiencing what I've already been through. The experience, is a gift. It has never felt like a gift when I received it, but I know now, they were gifts. Each designed by my Father to prepare me for the next. There were incidents like the following before these, but they happened too early in life to understand pain. I believe even that was by design, I was probably 5 or 6 when my Grandfather died around 1960. Just thinking right now my Grandmother died at about the same time I lost my mind, and did the stupidest thing I've ever done, I left home, I was fourteen. Interesting, I hadn't realized that till today. A gift, I got from being part of this class, and wanting to let someone, I care about understand, I understand. I learned since then better ways to deal with pain like that, than things like that. And, I am willing to share those with anyone who wants that kind of help. Because like I said before, it's a waste of my time trying to help someone, who doesn't want, or doesn't think, they need help from, me. Since then my only brother died, around 1992. My second wife died, July 25th 1997. I had a car accident April 11, 2008, that made it impossible for me to play my favorite sport, basketball, has forced me to retire early, and change careers. I'll be close to 60 when I graduate. My favorite son went missing, and was murdered, sometime between March 1st and March 27th 2009. And the police won't investigate. I'll have to do it. My mother had a stroke and died about a week later, when we had to take her off life support December 27, 2011. All painful events. I haven't had a drink or did any drugs, that aren't prescribed by a doctor, since April 6th 1991. There are much better ways to deal with pain, life's good, I enjoy it. Hope you have a great day too. I don't have a degree, only experience, I happen to believe experience, is a really good thing, A gift.

I read the blogs written by classmates and our professor, interesting, what interests you all. Beverly, we got more in common. My Father was a fourth grade school teacher, Miss Johnson , I'm responding to your blog as well. My Father, was a Great Black Man, and a great fourth grade school teacher. There are people in south Philly, and all over the country that still remember and talk about him. You are right, there aren't many but I knew one really personally. Wish I had had the sense to give him the props he deserved when he was alive. But I do now. Thanks for the opportunity. It's a hard job doing a job, nobody appreciates you doing. Guess we all reap what we sow, though. I'm having a little problem seeing, so I'm signing off now, hopefully, the doc will see me tomorrow. Peace!

I've ben reading Blogs for a half hour, interesting stuff, it helps me see what is important to the people who God has placed in my life for whatever time I'm with you all. Well here's whats important to me. I try to listen to what God has to say to me. Through circumstances, people, nature, assignments, etc. I have children to raise, a wife, friends, all of whom need to know that I love them, while they are able to hear it. I believe in giving flowers to the living. A comment, thats meant for all who I'm following, keep sharing your thoughts, your hopes, your dreams. Your right from my perspective. Home is where the heart is. Nothing has been more important for me than my children. I have wanted to be a father since I was about fifteen. My first was born at 29. However, when I was 17, I met, my first wife. She was about 23, and had 3 children. We got married in Basil Switzerland, in 1975. By 1980, it was over. But the relationship with the children rebooted in 1997 at Haywood's wedding. He found me, and asked me to come to his wedding in North Carolina. We are close again, and Donna and Wanda have allowed me back into their lives as well. All six of my children met, and when Najee was killed Haywood Donna and Wanda helped, and are helping to Nurse me back to health. I love my children, some of whom have adopted me and call me dad. I thank God for all my experiences, the good and the ones that are a lot harder to except. Because I don't have a choice. I don't go around consciously creating problems for myself, and other people like I used to. Life can be to short for that. I make mistakes, and when I catch myself doing that, I regroup, and change direction to whats more in line with Gods will. I got to take my baby girl to school

My Body really hurts, today, only thing that's changed is this medication thet got prescribed last week. It's one of those necessary ones, so hopefully, my body will get used to it and the pain lessen. Other than that, I'm having a good day. Got my class work done , just need to get this blog posted, and follow three people and I'm out. Visited Bobby yesterday, he survived emergency stomach surgery, to remove an obstruction, so once again I have reason to count my blessings. He called me last Friday afternoon, while I was on the way to Hilton Head. Told me he was at the hospital since early in the morning. About 12 Saturday Patrick called me and said Bobby had had emergency surgery. I could only be thankful that he had survived it. Bobby is a great friend, and chess player. He's a cancer surviver, Viet Nam vet, and he's experienced losing a daughter. We've got a lot in common, have walked through some similar stuff, I'm glad the brother is still on this side of the ground. I'll be stopping by the hospital on the way home. I believe it's best to give flowers while you can smell them. Enjoy your day, or night.

This is not my idea of fun, playing with a computer But I've endured much, much, worse. As I said before, most of it was self inflicted. So please don't get it twisted, I'm not complaining. Believe it or not, I enjoyed, quite a bit of it. Just didn't always enjoy the consequences. Each and every experience, has molded me into the man I am today. I think I turned out okay. I appreciate life, love God, and enjoy living. I live each day as if it could be my last, and I try to help, anyone who wants my help. I've found it to be a huge waste of my time to try to help anyone that doesn't. Enjoy your day.

1248 Tuesday morning. I have been asleep since 7 something. I feel rested, but know I need to get back in the bed, and go back to sleep. I can be pretty irritable, when I don't get enough, sleep, food, sex, attention, love, respect, fun, conversation, dang, the list goes on and on. I could go on and on about that. I can't answer any questions about anyone but myself. I don't have all the answers to all the problems in the world. I'm really, honestly only writing because this is an assignment, that is a really big part of the grade I get for this computer course. So I laid in the bed after I woke up to relieve myself, trying to figure out what I could write. I have avoided using most of this media, for a very long time and am really not thrilled to continue, but I have to get the degree I'm after. It's not for money though, I'm 58, retired, and capable of living off the retirement check and odd jobs if I must. But I'm driven by closure. Who cares about that, but me? So I can't write about that, at least, not here.Got to keep that to myself. So just so some of my class mates and professor Beard understand, that I care and have read about some of your thoughts on love and children, and Tony, I need you to know you are my inspiration. I hope everyone in the world gets to experience, love, all of our children learn to appreciate those of us who take the time to be the best parents we can be, learn how to express, the love and respect they have for us, in a way we can see it. Sometimes we don't see what we have, because it's already there. I've often looked for things , I already had. Bad habit, not appreciating, what I've got. Love, is all around us. It's right there, try, embracing it. Please, enjoy your day! the most important thing I got, I saved for last, hope you read this far, PRAY, seek GOD, and ask him to answer all your questions. Just a suggestion. Enjoy!

Back at school, I am in computer class, I need this class to be successful at a job I didn't see coming. Obviously I wasn't supposed to see it coming. I guess I was prepared for it cause they say God don't give you more than you can handle, and I have plenty of experiences to believe it's true by now. Some have been self inflicted, I don't believe this one was, but I'm still standin. Why bother sharing the particulars with the world though, cause, my other experiences are that most people couldn't care less. So I'll write this blog cause if I don't I'll definitely fail this course. But I guess I'm as guilty of being as self centered, as the people I'm criticizing. But I've learned, if you spot it, you got it, there's no other way to recognize a thing. So I'll try to share what I've got to share even though I believe people couldn't care less. and hopefully learn what I need to learn to solve MY problem. I may have been causing another problem for myself, by not providing proof that I read others blogs by commenting in writing. But I do read them, I'm not sure most people want to hear my comments, but if it's part of the grade, I'll do that too.

742 pm, 2-4-14, had a good weekend, Cracker Barrel, Saturday morning, after my wife's successful procedure, at 6 in the morning, came home took a nap. Got up did a little work in the house, went to dinner at Smokey Bones. Came home, played Uno, watched some movie, went to sleep. Got up, went to church at 8 am, left at 130 pm, got food for super bowl party, we seasoned it up, fired up the grill and I cooked it up. Friend of mine showed up with his 4 year old son and we watched the game and talked trash. No alcohol, no drugs. We had a great time , good food good conversation, and his kid is a riot. Got a good night sleep. I don't gamble, much. But if I did, I would've won some money. School today was alright, learned some stuff I needed, some of my classmates are a riot. had an uneventful day. homes peaceful, gonna eat dinner work out a little, crash. enjoy YOUR night.

I was up at 2 this morning, attempting to write a blog Doesn't look like I even did for some reason. Guess I did something wrong with I. I remember clicking publish. Don't know where my work is. Anyway I spent some time on it. just turned my computer on, maybe its in there.

Good morning, 4 o'clock in the morning, even though I'm frustrated, after spending some of my time messing with this machine, so many people are dependent on to get through life. Trying to get some home work done, I'm probably going to have to rush it through in class, cause, after down loading my FREE trial , I find its not compatible with Mac. I really don't like these machines. I am a product of a time when we communicated eye ball to eyeball. Thats what I love. I still write letters, put stamps on them and mail em. I still call people and talk for hours on the phone. I believe in quality time, and make it for people that appreciate that kind of interaction. I still go to dinner, and sit across the table and really have conversations. I've been working on these kinds of interactions with the few people in my life that care enough about me to understand how important that is for my personal development. And sometimes theirs. So, I'm going to go back to bed, and when I get to school, maybe somebody can help me understand how to navigate this machine thats new to me. Possibly,... without looking down on me for not bothering to get into it till now?

I really need a nap, I'll write this, then maybe i'll take one. Class was good today, got a 90. Got to school only 15 minutes late enjoyed class. Had an outstanding weekend, wedding anniversary, wife's 50th birthday party. Sister and brother in-law flew in Friday from Philly. Sister and Laws drove in from ATL. Got a Chef friend who cooked the food, it was outstanding. So I should be tired, we had fun. I'm going to take a nap. Later

Jan. 21,2014


Had a good day! Not on my way to jail, haven't done anything to go, today, but can't say the times I've been, I did every time either. So I'm free, and really happy bout that. Woke up at 5, so I'm not dead. Was able to get out the bed and walk, man, God is good. Fixed breakfast,  got dressed, made sure my daughter was dressed, and got out on time,wow! Took the car to the shop, arrived at 6:50
checked in at 7, done by 7:45, left to drop my baby girl off at school. Got to school myself a little
late, but, got there. School was productive, I'm a little closer to my goal, It's good. Picked up my
mail at the Post Office, got good news, W2, mail from my son, mail from countrywide, about
settlement money. Man it's getting gooder and gooder. Drove home, baby girl is home, doing her
homework. It's just about time for me to make it to my meeting. After that we will do some
food shopping, come home , and wind it down. Get some sleep for tomorrow. 58 years old, is,
great! I'm a blessed man! I even cooked and we had dinner.

Good morning

    So, anyway, maybe this will work itself out, it's early in the morning. I have every intention of doing my part to make this a good day. I woke up again, so 

it's my responsibility to do all I can to make some positive things happen. In a matter of minutes I will start breakfast, do a little work out, wake my daughter,

wash up, get dressed, make sure she's presentable,drop her off to school, and attempt to get to school on time. I will get to school, and hopefully, use this 

email as my blog. Being a FULL time father is time consuming, most of you can't know that, because you're not fathers, so I figured I'd tell you two things,I

am a "full" time father and it's time consuming. Also, it's my greatest joy, and accomplishment. I am at a time in my life,where it is possible for me to spend

quality time with my baby girl. I'm home, when she gets off the bus. I get her started on her homework, possibly, like last week do mine, or attempt too.

    In the case of this home work, that's exactly what I tried to do. What I saw on my computer screen didn't look so good so I stopped and continued to 

get my other work done. Started dinner, checked homework, ate. Right this minute, I can't remember what I did after that, so I never got back to this. I 

apologize to all of you for my tardiness, I promise i'll do better next week. I'm sure, God willing , I make it to class, I'll get all the information I need, so that

my future blogs will be composed in a timely fashion. I will find a way to get it done. Believe it or not, I have a really full life. I am also a part time carpenter,

and i'm remembering so of what got done, since the last time I was in class. I had one of those home projects, where I had to create, something we needed

in our house out of wood. That job is done, it took several days, It really looks good. I had meetings all week. My family attended a mutual friends surprise

party after church Sunday, I'm drawing a blank again.so I'l sign off here, and start breakfast, after I ask the Father, to help me make this, a great day.

It's a great day!

I woke up, you're reading this, that means you woke up too! So both of us have an opportunity to have a great day! That's my plan everyday. even on the interesting ones. Lord knows I've had plenty of them. 58 years worth. Some have been fun , some not so much. So the goal for me, is to make the not so much days positive anyway. Enjoy, like this is the last day you will get to!